Who do you love?

[Katie]

I was walking out of the Theatre tonight. There was a chill in the air that bit my nose as I walked into the cold. I had never quite realized the history a place can have with you. Such a seemingly meaningless sidewalk, but as I walked down it with my lover it was like I was walking hand in hand with the two other men I had fallen in love with previously. It was almost as if I was watching myself be in love with all of them, just at different times in my life. All three of these men have had equal influence in my life, in their own unique ways. I came to ask myself, who am I? Every time I walked this sidewalk with the same affection, the same smile the same caring. Why am I this way? Who is it that I have become? I succumb to the love in my life and work at healing those around me. Have I taken the time to heal myself? Who would I be without my love directed in another's direction? Is there a reason that I find myself continuously in the same position? I am deathly afraid of being alone. I am afraid of being without someone in need of me. What is a person that has no-one to care about? It also got me thinking about how similar the situations are that bring me to walk down this chilly sidewalk underneath the stars. I have been left every time before once people have gotten from me everything that they needed. I will never let go of that love. Have they? Everything happens for a reason, whose destiny becomes a part of your own? I guess for now all there is to do is tell those I care for that I love them. You never know what day it will be when you find yourself on a different path without that anchor. You never know how your words will effect and manifest in other's lives. I would hope that when I leave a person's life that it was better after having me in it.

[kenny]

It's good to see you posting again. Nice read.

[Heather j]

me, of course.