Can't live with 'em and can't live witho... well.. you can't live with 'em.

[cold]

So I've been seeing this new girl for a little while. Since last Wednesday she's off to PA for another school's semester, before she is going to come back to live with me. I miss her. I think about her. I love her. Yet, I am not in-love with her.

Since my last relationship I have developed a acute mistrust in women, once I passed that boundary of 'just knowing you.' Not to mention the stutter I have developed as well.

Now back to this new girl. She's beautiful. She's smart. I like her, but I'm not in love with her. Everything seems as though, things should fall in place. Like how a chemist could make something as simple as Sodium Chloride. Except this time, there is no reaction. For the first time, in a long time I want to fall in love. I want to forget everything I ever knew about pain, just so I can lay down with this person. Lay down and not think about all the ways this one is going to lie to me in so many ways. Lay down with this person and relax. "This is me, being myself right now, with you."

(Keep your distance. Don't get attached.)

Fuck this. Fuck how I feel. Most importantly fuck being content. Now when I look at the big picture, I know what to look for in women. I have been given a blueprint of an evil mind. I now know how to navigate around such things and find people who possess a kinder heart.

There is my epiphany. A formula, even. Happiness has no greater value, without contrast. A contrast, that I use at my own discretion.
For this I will know nothing greater, with happiness.

For this, I wish I could travel a thousand miles just to thank that bitch for fucking me up in the first place.

[wookiee]

I hear ya, i'm in a very similar position. First of all man, hopefully you know by now to take care of numero uno. That's cool you know how to navigate around the bullshit, but why? (rhetorical here). "falling in love" is something that you do in high school and it doesn't last. Real relationships take time and tend to have a stronger bond.

Originally posted by cold For this, I wish I could travel a thousand miles just to thank that bitch for fucking me up in the first place.

Well, don't forget that she did fuck with you and though it may have been good in the long run, she's a bitch.

[l0wkey]

It looses its luster after about 5 years of marriage