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Kenny,
I'm fairly new to the forums so I haven't had a chance to read through many of your posts to get a true sense as to how deep your depression truly runs, but... based on this thread, I'd say that it is not a case of depression that you can just snap out of. My father was diagnosed with chemical depression (or something to that effect) to where it wasn't necessarily the events in his life causing it, but rather a chemical imbalance in your brain. He started taking medication and it controlled the seemingly completely random emotional outbursts. Like your episode at the end of the Clerks 2 credits, he too can just randomly start crying. He has no idea why... he just does. That is clearly not a "normal" thing, nor is it something that he wants. At one point we thought it was a case of bipolarism, but it turned out that a chemical deficiency in his brain was to blame. Now, since then, he's done some seriously stupid and fucked up shit, but my point is, you might want to talk to a doctor about getting tested for this sort of a chemical imbalance. Letting loose on the keyboard and using the forum boards as a pseudo-therapy is wonderful, but if it's chemical, it can only do so much... Just my $.02.
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